Social Anxiety Disorder

I hate my yearbook picture!!! I have a really low self esteem!! :(?
Ok so this is gonna seem really stupid, but i hate my yearbook picture this year!! The yearbook for my school (everyone gets 1) comes out next week and I'm scared of what everyone else is going to say about my hideous picture! (I suffer with Social Disorder, which means that I care too much of what others think of me & I have a really low self esteem) I've been dreading the day the yearbook comes out, because I keep imagining everyone laughing and making fun my picture. I even had a dream that this happened. Please don't say 'it can't be THAT bad!' because it is!! My hair is completely messed up, and I'm smiling so ugly!! I even threw away my school id with my picture on it, because its so damn ugly!! I know alot of people think they look bad in yearbook pictures, but mine is definitely the worst picture ever taken of me! I know I'm crazy, but I've been worrying about this literally the whole freaking year!!! D: If someone makes fun of it, should I play along a make a joke about it? Is there anyway to boost my self esteem? UUUGGH!!! I hate having Social Anxiety Disorder!! Thanks!

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My teacher may be harrassing me?
Ok so t I have this strange art teacher who has kind of been insulting me in class Hes really weird but in a cool way hes like a monotone teacher who says gruesome sarcastic things that are actually pretty funny to start off with I am a pretty awkward girl Im pretty quiet but I often come to class late( a really bad habit I have changed) and I half assed on work when this teacher knows im a pretty good artist in other classes with different people Im pretty lovable but in that class Im quiet and awkward since im not really too cool with other students with that in mind it began when I asked him for string (at this time I was sitting in a group with people idk) he gave me string and said ok here you go dont choke and body though I dont know if the tension is that high I kind of let it go and tried not to be sensitive about it he told my favorite teacher(art teacher) that my project was crap because I made a seinfeld pop up book: The soup Nazi episode(x but it didnt quite pop up all the way. My teacher(my fav) was kinda mad and told me about it and said "like whats up with that guy!?" and after that he seemed noticeably mad the next day I sat down and was reading a book on 1000 best movies and I was looking at a picture of groucho marx he stood next to my desk and just stared at it like wtf and I was mad about what he told my fav teacher so while he stared at the book I kinda mad dogged him and then he just walked away you could tell he doesnt like me and often almost looks mad when i ask him for something One time he sat at our desks and staring at me and he said " doesnt alma look like she could be a serial killer like she could start stabbing people with a knife like would you keep it down your getting blood everywhere!" my friend laughed and said you look more like a serial killer and he said yah I love walking into stores like captain crunch boom!" next time he sat down while I was drinking water and said " (my name) when your drinking something and swish it around does anything ever come out" (insinuating that I dont brush my teeth which I do btw!) and I said "no" and he said " well it will" and I said "does that happen to you" and he said "sometimes" and then one time I came in and put my head down and I heard him pretty much call me a homeless person and some kid that everyone hates and who does nothing laughed and was like "poor (my name)" but initially I put my head down because I hated being in that class cus of the teacher And sometimes when he sits in our group Ill cover my face so he wont say anything and he jokes and draws cartoons for the other kids and shows them but he never shows me and when he asks me something I get really awkward and dont know what to say. Also this one time my friend was wearing a hoodie and I wear a Jimi Hendrix hoodie like everyday and I heard him from the next desk saying "yah Helen(the girl sitting next to me) is wearing a hoodie although shes a bit thin to be wearing a hoodie." So its been pretty shitty but then again im not really myself in that class I told my friend all of this and she said that he's an asshole and that I could report him for that but I dont really want to be a jerk about it and actually he has been a bit less mean but still looks angry when I ask him somthing but everytime I think of what he has said to me it kind of makes me sad last time ( I can be a weenie sometimes) it was enough to make me cry a little and sometimes I wish I could come after school and tell him off and tell him the reason Im so quiet is because I have social anxiety disorder which im not proud to say I think i have but yah I really dont know what to do and the worse thing is that he himself was continuosly picked on and has said that he hated his high school.. also this one time I passed through his class afterschool to give him a project and hes kind of tall so I handed it too him and he said thank you and I nodded and looked up and noticed that his eyes were pretty red like if he was crying so I faked smile said mmhm walked away so i dont know if hes kind of has problems that he might be taking out on me? so i kind of feel bad for him at the same time I wanted to tell my brother he probably wouldve done something about it but its pretty humiliating :( So please help? any advice ?

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