Disorder Panic

Doctor, Pharmacist, or DBA?
I am currently a sophomore in high school and I have been looking into possible careers for my future. I have decided to become either a doctor, pharmacist, or database administrator. I am great at math (currently taking pre-calculus), though I haven't taken any science classes yet (besides Earth Science which I got an A in... pretty easy). I took Life Science in 7th grade, and I also got an A -- we memorized a lot of terminology too, though I was never particularly interested in what we learned at the time. I enjoy reading and learning about medical conditions and even go to the extent of memorizing certain conditions and their symptoms and treatments. Besides wanting to be a doctor, I have also considered being a database administrator or system administrator. I am naturally good at using computers and can usually find a way to make something work. But I am not sure if I want to turn a hobby into a future job -- I actually own a website that profits ~$600 a month -- of course, I wouldn't want to do web marketing in the future because it's more work than it's worth. I've considered becoming a medical doctor (primary care doctor or a radiologist) or a pharmacist. I'm not sure I'd enjoying pharmaceutical studies though, as I enjoy learning more about certain conditions rather than counting pills. I also suffer from anxiety (GAD->General Anxiety Disorder), panic disorder, ocd, and I have asperger's syndrome. I have a high-functioning form of autism, so I am fairly smart but I lack communication skills and have few friends. I believe I could get over this though, what do you think? I am not treated with medications, because my parents object to the use of antidepressants to cure "mental" disorders.

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Do anxiety disorders ever go away?
Recently I discovered that I have GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder), Panic Disorder, a little bit of OCD, and Social Anxiety Disorder. I haven't gone to a doctor but I have had the symptoms for over a year and I know this is it. Six months ago or so I went to a psychiatrist but she only diagnosed me with Panic Disorder. Since you probably don't know much about these disorders, I'll give you some info on what I'm experiencing: GAD- I constantly feel worried for no reason and can't seem to relax. Even when I'm just sitting on the couch or lying in bed, all of a sudden my heart will start racing really fast and it freaks me out. Most of the time, I have this weird feeling inside of me, I don't really know how to describe it, but it makes me feel uncomfortable all the time to the point where I can't enjoy simple things like sitting outside eating my lunch or walking my dogs. Panic Disorder- This happens less often. The first time it happened I was watching a movie and at that moment, a character died, and that seemed to trigger something in my brain that made me start panicking. I felt like I was going to die. My heart beat extremely loud and fast and I kept feeling like I was about to die and there was no way to escape. It was the scariest thing ever. Most of the time it's not that severe, but at school where it's really loud and crowded, especially in the hallways, I often have mini-panic attacks. I usually think I'm going to throw up and embarrass myself which is kind of similar to social anxiety disorder. Other times I feel like I am losing control of myself and am going to scream uncontrollably or have a mental breakdown (I never actually have thrown up or had a nervous breakdown or anything, so that proves how unrealistic my panic is. Even though I know it's fake, I can't get rid of it.) Also, the symptoms I experience are nausea, pounding heart, sweatiness, weakness/faintness/dizziness, hot flashes, chest pain, smothering sensations, a sense of unreality, a fear of impending doom, and a fear of losing control. I am afraid of stupid, random things like becoming pregnant(which is impossible), dying, developing other disorders like bipolar and schizophrenia, getting cancer, etc. OCD- My OCD is more minor and I am very lucky for that. There are some routines I have to do like clicking my mouse every once in a while for no particular reason, cracking my knuckles, pulling at my clothes or sticking my hands in my pocket in public, and arranging things to face a certain direction. For example, I always put my iPod remote in the same spot on my desk, the computer has to be centered almost perfectly, the mouse has to be in the middle of the mousepad facing straight, and my chair always has to be facing straight as well. Social Anxiety Disorder- I feel like everyone is watching and judging my every move, especially at school, and I can't get rid of the uncomfortable feeling. My mouth starts feeling really weird and I have to keep swallowing because there is a lot of spit in my mouth (I know, it's disgusting -__-). I feel like an idiot talking to people because I keep swallowing and I can't carry on a normal conversation, even though I can with my family and close friends. Also, I might have something like hypochondria where I think every little thing that happens to me is way worse than it is. Like, a stomach pain means I have a tumor, and when I'm playing sports, my heart will be pounding naturally because I am exercising, and I'll think I'm about to have a heart attack. If you haven't experienced any of these disorders, please understand that the words "uncomfortable" and "panic" have a whole 'nother meaning for me. Because my panic and worrying has no real reason, it rarely goes away and I feel like I am trapped forever in sadness. It's not like getting an adrenaline rush, in-the-moment when something exciting happens. It's the worst thing I've ever felt. I don't know how else to describe it but please understand that this stuff really sucks and I would appreciate anything that you have to say that you think can help me. I know I should tell my parents and ask to see a psychiatrist, but I don't know if that makes a difference. I am definitely NOT taking any drugs/medications. Thank you for reading this. Everything was awesome until this happened, my life was perfect, I was happy, and rarely worried about a thing. Now I mostly sit around at home, alone, because I can't be around other people. I moved away from everyone I care about too, and I feel like I am just going through the motions with no purpose. So I guess my real question is, if you have gone through something like this, does it ever get better? Are you able to live a fulfilling life or are you stuck with it forever? And if it can be cured, does that mean it still comes back every now

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